Times Are Changing..

Life used to be so simple in the past, with all the inappropriate behaviors locked away behind a closet door. The orientation of genders were either boy and girl or not spoken about. Movies had very extreme requirements in order to be even shown to the public. In today's time, all of this is completely out of proportion, with people showing their true nature to the public, somethings shouldn't be seen. Movies today are so revealing and the ratings keep getting more pathetic as our generations advance, with movies in the PG-13 rating, to me some of these movies should be rated R. This world is really starting to turn into a big mess. I may sound like someone way out of my age range, but things like this sort of worry me. I can't even imagine what God is even thinking of us right now. There is one thing that is in a way positive to today's society and it's the fact that we can choose our own religion without the fear of being harmed or made fun of by others, although some still do it. I know that my knowledge of all this is probably a little inexperienced, but everything starts out somewhere.

The Sad Trip Is Over!

Today, I visited the Dunbar Church of Christ to see Jake for the last time. I told him that I would miss him dearly and that I loved him. My sad roadtrip is finally over! My plate is clean and I can return to my happy self once more! I appreciate all those who put up with me for the past few weeks when I was in drama mode. God has proven correct once again and made me stronger than ever! This new chapter in my life feels like it's going to be a great one! Time to celebrate with the song: Everyday, by Hillsong and Delirious!

My Eyes Have Finally Open

After a time of depression because of Jake moving away, and my Gradfathers passing, my heart opened up a whole new view of things along with what Steve Kenney told me. I need not be upset about Jake leaving anymore, because I will see him again someday, although I will miss him alot and I know that he will always be my friend. My Grandfather is in Heaven with God, nothing beats that prize! I'm going give those two troubles to God, and let him take care of them now. Now I have to deal with Trigonometry, which is a very big burden to me. I will make it, and I will be strong!

Wind Beneath My Wings

Heavens Gates Finally Open..

Well, my Grandfather is now on his death bed..the doctors can do nothing more for him, it is now a matter of time before God takes him to the kingdom of heaven. He lived 84 years of a good christian life, and now he gets to get the final rest he deserves. I hope that when he dies that he is at peace. I now present you the music video: Tears In Heaven as a tribute to him.

Winterfest Reflections

This years Winterfest, to me was the best one yet, but usually when great things happen, sad things follow right behind them..I will detail more on those factors in a bit, but for now I will share some of my experiences of this trip. With the topic being Rock Solid, quite a bit of information was presented to everyone about how much do you know Jesus Christ, and are you able to explain yourself about him to someone if they do ask you for proof. Well, I will say for sure, that there is proof that all this exists, through ancient artifacts found in Israel. To me that is proof enough to stop an arguement, but I guess for some it's just not enough. There was a lot of beautiful singing, but sadly I lost my voice for that weekend and couldn't really sing. There was plenty of christian comedy that could bring anyones spirit up. What also made Winterfest so special, was being able to walk around with some people I rarely are around with and eat at nice restaurants and have fun, which has a family kind of feeling to it. That's the positive feedback from Winterfest, now for the sad parts, as from the previous post before about Jake leaving, I really didn't get to say goodbye to him the way I planned it, so I did it by phone, but I really want to perform it in person, but just by seeing him at Winterfest made it really difficult to accept the fact that he is leaving. Another sad thing is the Kenneys are moving also, but much later. I hate it when people move away, I feel alone and devastated. I never shed so many tears in one weekend, in a way it felt pretty good to finally let out some of my pain for others to comfort me about. I can't wait for the next Winterfest to experience more powerful meanings, and be reunited with those who have moved away..

Happy Valentines Day

To some Valentines Day is a wonderful holiday, but this year for me it became a sad holiday..what made it so sad was looking at Jake Kaufmans blog stating that he is moving away, which I never expected at least not yet. I know God has big plans for him, but the fact that I gained a new wonderful friend, and then he moves away, just devastated me. My emotions as of now are very scattered, and my concentration is very dull. I hope I get to see him one last time, which is the Winterfest trip if I even see him at all. Saying goodbye to someone is very hard and I'm very bad at it, since I start to cry at the thought and especially in person. I do wish him the very best and the church that he goes to will be very blessed to have such a spirited individual to spread the word of God. It may not be the end, but this chapter in my life is almost over, and the next one will surely bring more hardships as well as pleasure. I wish you all a Happy Valentines Day.

Dreams

It is said that some people stay young because they have a very active imagination. I honestly think this is very true, I myself have a very broad imagination. What makes things even better is when an adult has a broad imagination, my reasons for this opinion is because adults that don't have broad imagination are usually very uptight and boring, possibly more grumpy than those who can have fun. People I know of that are prime examples of fun are Youth Ministers, they keep in touch with us youth, which keeps them acting young and basically in touch with what is happening in our generation making them great influences over many other adults. With all this in mind I'm going to give a definition of Dream that I think it stands for.

Desire
Reflection
Enchanting
Active
Memorable

If people don't have an imagination, their lives will probably be more dark and gloomy, but with an imagination, they will be so much happier.

Living to Die

The fact that I wrote this post is that with living on this planet, there is one prerequisite that all must abide by, and that would be death. We live to die, and it haunts me all the time, I always wonder, why was I even born. My Grandfather might die if something doesn't happen soon..and the more I hear of this the more that death keeps pestering my heart. I still can't imagine myself dying...and the fact that others close to me are soon going to meet that fate makes me very unstable. I don't want to know of people dying. Once you do die, as I would think to myself, the toughest journey is over, and now you wait for your judgement. At this point the tables turn, now you die to live, hopefully for eternity in heaven. This song I found expresses this very event.

Light Your World

Two doors down one rocking chair is rocking
She sits there all alone, her husband dead and gone
The best years of her life they spent together
He was always strong, but now she's on her own
And the telephone never rings
No one laughs, no one sings
It's quiet there
Does anyone care?

(Chorus) Light your world
Let the love of God shine through
In the little things you do
Light your world
And though your light may be
Reaching only two or three
Light your world

A knocking at her door breaks the silence
She looks out to see a little boy from down the street
She cracks the door, surprised that he came over
Flowers in his hand like a little gentleman
He said, 'I picked these just for you
I hope you like the color blue
Could I stay a while
I love to see you smile.'

(Repeat Chorus) Light your world
Let the love of God shine through
In the little things you do
Light your world
And though your light may be
Reaching only two or three
Light your world

It only takes a little time
To show someone how much you care
It only takes a little time
To answer someone's biggest prayer

(Repeat Chorus)

Once Again

I found this song and listened to it. The words are very real and tell a deep message if you listen and read the words as they are displayed in the video. I know as many others, that we don't thank God enough for what he did for us, and this song expresses just that.

Serving God, anyone can do it!

I think that some people think that they aren't doing anything to serve God, but truly they probably don't realize that they probably are serving him. I was in those shoes at one time or another. What made me open my eyes further was the fact that the church needed me for the sound room, and during one sermon about serving God, I realized I was doing something, being head of the sound room. Another way I serve God is through my blog providing christian music, special posts that are christ related, and everyday topics that I can relate in a religious perspective. Even though I don't get much publicity like other blogs I have listed, even though I would like more, if I can just reach one person, I have done my job. For those who question themselves, you should ask yourself to look deep within yourself and think:
What kind of action have I done that has a Christ like attitude?
After you ask yourself that question, some answer could be: Are you being a good friend to people? Do you respect others? Have you ever helped anybody out when they needed it most?
These are just a few awesome ways that show you serve God. Never lose hope in yourself, always believe that you are useful in some kind of way, if you are happy with yourself, that's usually all that matters.

The Super Bowl

Well, today is the big Super Bowl game, and I wonder who is going to win? I know very little about football, and honestly it never was a big deal to me, but I'm thinking, maybe if I go for one of these two teams, it will be a little more interesting! I honestly think the Steelers will come out as the champs for this game. What do you think?

Live update: STEELERS WON!! WOOOOOOHOOOOO! I'm so good! Post your comments now!

Video Updated with Steelers victory.

Heaven Is A Place On Earth

Ooh, baby, do you know what that's worth?
Ooh heaven is a place on earth
They say in heaven love comes first
We'll make heaven a place on earth
Ooh heaven is a place on earth

When the night falls down
I wait for you
And you come around
And the world's alive
With the sound of kids
On the street outside

When you walk into the room
You pull me close and we start to move
And we're spinning with the stars above
And you lift me up in a wave of love...

Ooh, baby, do you know what that's worth?
Ooh heaven is a place on earth
They say in heaven love comes first
We'll make heaven a place on earth
Ooh heaven is a place on earth

When I feel alone
I reach for you
And you bring me home
When I'm lost at sea
I hear your voice
And it carries me

In this world we're just beginning
To understand the miracle of living
Baby I was afraid before
But I'm not afraid anymore

Ooh, baby, do you know what that's worth?
Ooh heaven is a place on earth
They say in heaven love comes first
We'll make heaven a place on earth
Ooh heaven is a place on earth

(instrumental)

In this world we're just beginning
To understand the miracle of living
Baby I was afraid before
But I'm not afraid anymore

Ooh, baby, do you know what that's worth?
Ooh heaven is a place on earth
They say in heaven love comes first
We'll make heaven a place on earth
Ooh heaven is a place on earth
Ooh heaven is a place on earth
Ooh heaven is a place on earth
Ooh heaven is a place on earth
Ooh heaven is a place on earth
Ooh heaven is a place on earth
Ooh heaven is a place on earth

This song is a pretty awesome song if you pay close attention to the lyrics, the only thing I find wrong with the song is the main phrase: Heaven is a place on Earth, that phrase is very misleading and very unreal just by thinking about the world today, nothing is perfect. One of the truthful phrases of this song: In Heaven love comes first, to me that sounds pretty accurate since God is love. Thinking about the phrase: In this world we're just beginning to understand the miracle of living, some of us in fact most of us don't understand the miracle of living, at least it isn't easy for people to learn to live the way they should, I'm a good example, as I learned in church sin is fun, if it wasn't fun we wouldn't do it. A phrase that is very meaningfull is the phrase: When I feel alone
I reach for you and you bring me home when I'm lost at sea I hear your voice and it carries me, this reminds me of God, because when we are alone he is always there for us to lead us in the right direction, when we are lost, we may not hear his voice directly, but we can hear him through others. The music video is below.

The Door Is Starting To Open

If people remember me from the years ago, and last year including, I was a totally secluded individual. I still sometimes am very secluded, but I'm getting so much better about going beyond the seclusive life. I guess I should start where this change began. When I was at the lowest point in my life, my best friend Sean was there for me and was a grand encouragement for me, but it just didn't seem like enough and I was back to scene 1, then in the Fall of 2005 or Summer of 2005, I started being a little more active in church, which was slowly bringing forth a new side of me, which some people noticed. Of course I still wasn't satisfied enough with the way things were still going, because there were still people who really never knew I existed or at least totally forgot who I was and I wanted to make myself visible, this drastic change happend at one of the Praise Everywhere events, which I think was I think one or two Praise Everywhere events ago, but that's besides the point, what brought this change was Jake Kaufman. When I first saw this person, which was like a year or two ago, I thought to myself, why is he a Youth Minister, he doesn't have the maturity of one. I finally realized by how people act around him he seems like a pretty fun person! My problem there was, with my social status being not the best in the world, I probably wasn't popular enough to even talk to him, but I gave it a shot and of course my thoughts about popularity shouldn't have gotten in the way of talking to someone, and I made a new friend! Jake was truly one of the first people who allowed me to come out of my seclusive shell, and George Welty, God bless his soul, I think he didn't really know who I was until he met me in person technically for the first time, which means I'm starting to be visible! This most recent Praise Everywhere has been another way for me to let people know that I exist and the fact that I'm really trying to be a better person. I can't wait till the next Praise Everywhere!

A Spiritual Boost

Today's Praise Everywhere activity at Dunbar was the BEST of all the others I have been to. Jake did an excellent job with his sermon, it opened many doors in my heart, that I had to think about and in ways I started seeing things a little more differently. Georges sermon, it just touched my heart, because when I see people suffering to such a degree, I wish I could help them and there always seems to be nothing I can do. The food was awesome as usual, and I met some new people, I'm still pretty shy at meeting people, but I feel I'm getting better at it. I wish it was a little longer than what it was, because when I'm there I always feel a great peace of mind from the harshness of the real world, it's like a very minute piece of heaven is here and then goes. The next piece of heaven is Winterfest!!! I can't wait for that awesome day to come!

Nothing Without Christ

I was like a blind man on a road that led nowhere just an empty-hearted beggar in desperate need of help I was poor in spirit, but he was rich in love I was down to nothin' when he came to lift me up now I will never let myself forget all he has done how he came and rescued me and where he brought me from..

Chorus:
I am nothing without christ, he is everything to me he's the reason that I live, he is my only need I know I couldn't make it throughone day without jesus in my life I am nothing, nothing without Christ.

There is nothing good in me that did not come from him nothing I could boast of that he did not give from the moment I cried out to him to heal my troubled soul he welcomed me with open arms, said all that's mine is yours now I will never let myself forget all he has done how he came and rescued me and where he brought me from..

Bridge:
Like a wave without a seashore or a kingdom with no king without jesus in my life, I know I wouldn't be complete..

Chorus(2x)

I loved this song when I first heard it. I think it has such a powerful meaning to it.

Final Decision..

Since last year, I tried to keep in touch with my best friend, but this *relationship* he is in just went too far....and he finally started ignoring me for good. So I finally made up my mind, I'm completely removing him from my thoughts, so I don't go through any more sad moments. I sort of feel relieved that I got rid of a long term problem like this. This event might have been a sign from God, that there are better things on Earth to go for besides waiting to see if some people can change. I just hope that I don't have to make this kind of decision again for quite a while.

A Tale of Two Kingdoms

Once upon a time there existed two kingdoms, one called Hope, and one called Despair. The people of Hope Kingdom lived life to the fullest and praised God everyday and the people of Despair Kingdom were always depressed to the fullest and worshiped a golden monument. One day a disturbing note came to both kingdoms saying: If you don't love your enemy, people from your kingdoms will leave and live a life beyond hope and despair. Both kingdoms didn't truly understand what the meaning of the letter was trying to say, so they continued there lives the way they were. All of a sudden people of both kingdoms started leaving and never to be found, then they realized that life beyond hope and despair was death, and now know that the people leaving were leaving for good. The kingdoms realized that they are both people and share the same goals if only they would worship one God. They didn't wait any longer, they joined kingdoms to become the ultimate kingdom which became known as Love. Thanks to the love of the kingdoms the ones who left came back, and everyone rejoiced.

I know my story probably sounded a little corny for some, but there is awesome meaning behind it. If we all love one another, there is hope for all and if there is hope for all, I think there will be more love. This is one of the ways I think Heaven will be like, a whole world of family, loving each other, with no more despair.

Pros and Cons of Living My Life.

My life is more complicated than what people see of me in person. There are positive and negative sides to being me. For the positive side, with me being sheltered from some of the bad events of the world, I know barely any sexual references what so ever, so I can't understand half the dirty topics that others speak about. People usually trust me more than others because of my honesty, and they can talk to me on a one on one basis if they are having trouble. I made a vow to stay a virgin till marriage. The negative parts of being so sheltered, is the fact that I can be pretty ignorant and arrogant about certain things, like when people talk about homosexuality, which is a very difficult topic for me to understand at times. I had a small conversation with a close friend of mine, and I accidentally said something that sort of bugged him, because he has friends that are gay, I felt really terrible about it, but I wish I understood things like that better, so I wouldn't have to go through that again..I think that going to college will close some of my sheltered habits away, which is a good thing in some cases, because I can finally learn and understand the ways of the real world. I still wonder if anything I expressed here is wrong, but I just had to let this out eventually, so I don’t make any mistakes later.

Winterfest Warm Up Reflections

The Winterfest Warm Up was more than what I anticipated, over the week, it was awesome! All the activities were very entertaining, and had such great meaning. The guest speakers did a wonderful job, but only Jake and Toney's presentation of Unity, had the most significant effect on my physical, spiritual, and mental life, I love them very much and I respect them so much! My christian battery is very full, and I felt like I was part of a family when this topic was finally discussed, and I hope to feel this way for the rest of my life! The food, was excellent and tasted like a professional chef made it thanks to Reda! I can't wait till Winterfest!

What is true friendship?

I'm back to the reoccuring question that my life seems to be circling around...friendship. It seems that I can't keep any at school, due to pathetic reasons. I do have some wonderful friends at church and college, the college friends I will see soon, and I will soon lose physical association with ones at church. Why does life have to have a drastic change in just a few years? I hope I can find the answers to my questions, so I can finally let go of one of the problems that weigh my life down. Oh God, please ease some of this pain, so I can move on peacefully.