Saturday, December 31, 2005

Happy New Years!!!

The New Year has finally come! This big event comes with good and bad happenings during the night, noting that people truly do abuse this holiday to get drunk, trashed, and party in a bad manner. On the other hand some people reflect on how they can change for the good of the new year, I for one am definately reflecting on what kind of change I should make, but at the same time, very anxious for the church New Years Eve party tonight! I hope people that trash themselves tonight realize that it serves no purpose for the new year and could have celebrated in a more responsible and respectful manner. I hope you all have a splendid New Years Eve and plan good for the next year!

Friday, December 30, 2005

Open The Eyes Of My Heart Lord...

Open the eyes of my heart Lord,

Open the eyes of my heart,

I want to see you,

I want to see you.

To see you high and lifted up,

Shining in the light of your glory,

Pour our your power and love,

As we sing holy, holy, holy.

These words...are starting to make more sense to me, they bring a more positive perspective and as well a bright perspective of what we will be waiting for in Heaven! One can only imagine, actually one can't even imagine what wonderful things will greet us when we make it to the gates of Heaven! I will try to become a better christian and take a greater holy stand, I know I can do it!

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

An unusual burning desire...

Ever since christmas ended, for some reason I feel like my christian walk has gotten stronger. I really don't understand what made it grow, but I feels pretty good, I know that reading Jakes and Toney's blogs have been quite an influence, but something else is causing this wonderful feeling. I'm even more pumped for Winterfest more than ever!

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Christian Music Videos

I found a nice collection of songs, that we all know. And for some reason some of them look like they came from our Winterfest Trips. Enjoy!

Here I Am To Worship

For All You've Done

King Of Majesty

Monday, December 26, 2005

The Spirit In Your Eyes

I decided to make up a song, on how I feel about people in life, people I respect. I hope it makes sense.
When I woke up one morning, to a world of mystery, all I saw was bitterness and hatred, a terrible never ending story.

The day I thought the world would end, all of a sudden a ray of hope came from someone, that made the world seem less dim.

It was in your eyes that a wish came true, a wish for peace and happiness, that would never make others blue. It was the Spirit in your Eyes..

As I walk that narrow path alone, depression walked on in, and the only thing I saw around me was the darkness in my heart.

I didn't know where to turn, until I saw a light at the end. I knew that someone was watching over me, possibly my long lost friend.

It was in your eyes that symbolized love from above, a warm feeling that few could ever achieve. It was the Spirit in your Eyes..

We finally met eye to eye and talked about the one called God, the true meaning of what life is about, the one who knows all.

I truly turned my life around, I could see things so clear. When I'm in fear and doubt, I should fear no more, as I can pray, hope for the best and live another day.

It was in your eyes that I finally found a way to figure life out, a wise and virtuous friend that seems like God around and about. It was the Spirit in your Eyes..and that Spirit will never die.

Sunday, December 25, 2005

Merry Christmas!

Well, today I performed for the first time at church singing: My Grownup Christmas List. I made it through very well. I recieved wonderful gifts. This year has been the best Christmas yet! I hope you all have a very Merry Christmas!

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

A world of unknown sadness...

My depression has been acting up for some reason this week, I randomly cry heart aches....I wish I knew why I feel the way I do right now. Is this pain I'm feeling a sign? Will this make me stronger? I wish God could explain to me why I'm going through emotions are all mixed up..for once in my life I would like these mysterious burdens to go's as if a part of me is gone...what is my life coming to?! Can I get through this? I want to know! Maybe someone will be able to answer my prayer, and lighten my load...

Friday, December 16, 2005

Whittaker Case: Why won't it end?!

I honestly thought that this event was over, until today, finding out that it still lives frustrates me so much! What is the real answer behind this! From what I see and hear, that girl honestly in a technical form, killed herself. She could have been living to this very day if she wasn't making stupid decisions! My comments on this topic may seem apathetic, but people takes things out of proportion...I mean they make this case seem like the end of the world when surely there are many of the same things going on everywhere, just because she was a rich child, and could go beyond her boundaries and to me test what nature can actually do to you, and with that she payed the ultimate price. Teenagers need to gain some intellegence before they those consequences happen, I don't plan on being one of those people, I want to live life to the fullest!

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Church + Cliques= Bad news..

There is one thing about being a teenager that I hate most and that is dealing with the multitude of cliques that are around at school. I don't belong to one, because I don't have good enough social status to obtain such things, but I sometimes wish I could be in one to feel that kind of importance. Church hmm how to describe church and the many cliques they have...THEY DON'T NEED THEM!!! And yet they some how get in there anyways. It really separates people from one another and we lose connection. To me, if you have a special status at school or if you are an adult and you have a special status at work...LEAVE IT THERE! I just wish it would stop, it's unfair and sometimes it's just plain uncalled for.

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Almost back to normal.

After the major drag I have been going through lately, I think it's almost over, I just hope that some of the thoughts from my previous post are changed to the positive side instead of what they are now..maybe one of these days that will happen. What I pray for the most is to have many trusting friends I can go to, I do have some from church, but you can never have to many trustworthy friends..if you know me in some way and you are reading this post maybe you could be one if you want.

Monday, December 12, 2005

True feelings.. thoughts are so heavy, it makes me feel bad, and it makes me feel alone at times. I always feel like screaming on the inside! I cry, but no one sees it, I try to be someone people want to be around, but just can't seem to play the cards right. I want to express myself to people, but can't find the words to say..I want to find true friendship. That would be a miracle...