Happy New Years!!!

The New Year has finally come! This big event comes with good and bad happenings during the night, noting that people truly do abuse this holiday to get drunk, trashed, and party in a bad manner. On the other hand some people reflect on how they can change for the good of the new year, I for one am definately reflecting on what kind of change I should make, but at the same time, very anxious for the church New Years Eve party tonight! I hope people that trash themselves tonight realize that it serves no purpose for the new year and could have celebrated in a more responsible and respectful manner. I hope you all have a splendid New Years Eve and plan good for the next year!

Open The Eyes Of My Heart Lord...

Open the eyes of my heart Lord,

Open the eyes of my heart,

I want to see you,

I want to see you.

To see you high and lifted up,

Shining in the light of your glory,

Pour our your power and love,

As we sing holy, holy, holy.

These words...are starting to make more sense to me, they bring a more positive perspective and as well a bright perspective of what we will be waiting for in Heaven! One can only imagine, actually one can't even imagine what wonderful things will greet us when we make it to the gates of Heaven! I will try to become a better christian and take a greater holy stand, I know I can do it!

An unusual burning desire...

Ever since christmas ended, for some reason I feel like my christian walk has gotten stronger. I really don't understand what made it grow, but I feels pretty good, I know that reading Jakes and Toney's blogs have been quite an influence, but something else is causing this wonderful feeling. I'm even more pumped for Winterfest more than ever!

Christian Music Videos

I found a nice collection of songs, that we all know. And for some reason some of them look like they came from our Winterfest Trips. Enjoy!

Here I Am To Worship
http://www.youtube.com/?v=TuzicypsS4Y

For All You've Done
http://www.youtube.com/?v=WxvDEg-L3mo

King Of Majesty
http://www.youtube.com/?v=5c6hT1GGlRE

The Spirit In Your Eyes

I decided to make up a song, on how I feel about people in life, people I respect. I hope it makes sense.
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When I woke up one morning, to a world of mystery, all I saw was bitterness and hatred, a terrible never ending story.

The day I thought the world would end, all of a sudden a ray of hope came from someone, that made the world seem less dim.

(Chorus)
It was in your eyes that a wish came true, a wish for peace and happiness, that would never make others blue. It was the Spirit in your Eyes..

As I walk that narrow path alone, depression walked on in, and the only thing I saw around me was the darkness in my heart.

I didn't know where to turn, until I saw a light at the end. I knew that someone was watching over me, possibly my long lost friend.

(Chorus)
It was in your eyes that symbolized love from above, a warm feeling that few could ever achieve. It was the Spirit in your Eyes..

We finally met eye to eye and talked about the one called God, the true meaning of what life is about, the one who knows all.

I truly turned my life around, I could see things so clear. When I'm in fear and doubt, I should fear no more, as I can pray, hope for the best and live another day.

(Chorus)
It was in your eyes that I finally found a way to figure life out, a wise and virtuous friend that seems like God around and about. It was the Spirit in your Eyes..and that Spirit will never die.

Merry Christmas!

Well, today I performed for the first time at church singing: My Grownup Christmas List. I made it through very well. I recieved wonderful gifts. This year has been the best Christmas yet! I hope you all have a very Merry Christmas!

A world of unknown sadness...

My depression has been acting up for some reason this week, I randomly cry sometimes...my heart aches....I wish I knew why I feel the way I do right now. Is this pain I'm feeling a sign? Will this make me stronger? I wish God could explain to me why I'm going through this..my emotions are all mixed up..for once in my life I would like these mysterious burdens to go away..it's as if a part of me is gone...what is my life coming to?! Can I get through this? I want to know! Maybe someone will be able to answer my prayer, and lighten my load...

Whittaker Case: Why won't it end?!

I honestly thought that this event was over, until today, finding out that it still lives on...it frustrates me so much! What is the real answer behind this! From what I see and hear, that girl honestly in a technical form, killed herself. She could have been living to this very day if she wasn't making stupid decisions! My comments on this topic may seem apathetic, but people takes things out of proportion...I mean they make this case seem like the end of the world when surely there are many of the same things going on everywhere, just because she was a rich child, and could go beyond her boundaries and to me test what nature can actually do to you, and with that she payed the ultimate price. Teenagers need to gain some intellegence before they those consequences happen, I don't plan on being one of those people, I want to live life to the fullest!

Church + Cliques= Bad news..

There is one thing about being a teenager that I hate most and that is dealing with the multitude of cliques that are around at school. I don't belong to one, because I don't have good enough social status to obtain such things, but I sometimes wish I could be in one to feel that kind of importance. Church hmm how to describe church and the many cliques they have...THEY DON'T NEED THEM!!! And yet they some how get in there anyways. It really separates people from one another and we lose connection. To me, if you have a special status at school or if you are an adult and you have a special status at work...LEAVE IT THERE! I just wish it would stop, it's unfair and sometimes it's just plain uncalled for.

Almost back to normal.

After the major drag I have been going through lately, I think it's almost over, I just hope that some of the thoughts from my previous post are changed to the positive side instead of what they are now..maybe one of these days that will happen. What I pray for the most is to have many trusting friends I can go to, I do have some from church, but you can never have to many trustworthy friends..if you know me in some way and you are reading this post maybe you could be one if you want.

True feelings..

Sometimes...my thoughts are so heavy, it makes me feel bad, and it makes me feel alone at times. I always feel like screaming on the inside! I cry, but no one sees it, I try to be someone people want to be around, but just can't seem to play the cards right. I want to express myself to people, but can't find the words to say..I want to find true friendship. That would be a miracle...

Happy ThanksGiving Everyone!

God has blessed me a very nice Thanksgiving day, and semi-beautiful atmosphere to celebrate it in!





The first Thanksgiving was probably not what we think it was.
The Thanksgiving we now celebrate--a feast of togetherness between the Pilgrims and the Native Americans--was not the original gathering.

It is true that Squanto and his fellow Native Americans helped the Pilgrims to grow crops and get sap from trees and survive the harsh winters of what would become New England. But the very first harvest feast that these two peoples enjoyed was not called Thanksgiving.
Rather it was a celebration of the fall harvest, when vegetables were pulled from the ground and off stalks and made ready for a big meal.

Pilgrims and Native Americans dined together at the same tables, yes, and they played games together and demonstrated their bow-and-arrow and musket-shooting skills to each other. But they didn't call it Thanksgiving until 1624.

That year, William Bradford, the governor of the Plymouth Colony, proclaimed a day of thanksgiving that was really a day of fasting and prayer. (Remember, fasting is when you don't eat. So, Thanksgiving started out as a day of not eating.) And the day the members of the Plymouth Colony celebrated this day of fasting and prayer in thanksgiving was November 29.
So we have two ideas coming together: a day of thanksgiving for the fall harvest, on which people fasted and prayed, and a great feast to celebrate the bounty of the fall harvest. Since both activities celebrated the same thing--the fall harvest--it's only natural that they eventually merged (like so many other American holidays).

This merged celebration continued informally through the years, until 1863, when President Abraham Lincoln declared the fourth Thursday of November a national holiday called Thanksgiving.

How did we decide on eating Turkey? Well, that's another story.

I quoted this paragraph off another site, so it's not mine.

Can't wait to graduate!

Ooooh, it seems like it's going to take forever to graduate from high school, and after the Marshall University Open House tour, it makes me want to graduate even more since I found out my best friend goes there! God has definately answered my prayer and now I won't feel alone anymore!

To be logical or not to be logical.

Today in church, we had a discussion on multiple topics, and one of those topics ended up in a discussion on if God is logical. I for one don't think so due to everything on earth isn't very logically in tact. The only true logical beings to me are your scientists, big time professors, and people who just want to be logical. One of the topics about logic was love, which I also think is illogical, due to the fact that really, love has no real boundaries unless it is abused in that kind of fashion. In a logical way of thinking (If I were logical) that would be saying that you have to love a certain person and stick with that person. I pretty much find logic to be a sort of lazy way of figuring something out a better way. To me thinking illogically has a more broad approach and makes decisions more simpler to make. I don't know if I could survive this world based on complete logic, sometimes logic is ok, but not my most favorite style of thought.

Is fame an understatement?

I watch TV sometimes, mainly the disney shows like, That's So Raven, Suit Life of Zack and Cody, and Phil of the Future, and I wonder, are their lives as glamorous as it looks?

Ricky Ullman

An actor from one of my most favorite comedies, Phil of the Future. He always looks happy, but is he really like this? Does someone famous ever have time to themselves? Sure, the money he makes has to be pretty good, but as it is said, money doesn't bring happiness. I wish sometimes I could be in the spot light and be recognized for some kind of talent, but my performance skills are very lack and I'm too shy to do anything about it. I guess in Ricky's case, stars are usually very talented from the very beginning.

I guess in God's eyes we are all famous people and are just as worthy of the spot light as anybody else.

People are big critics!

Yesterday was the portfolio fair, I was confident that I could do it. I make it to the first interview, of course mistakes are found right off the bat, but he doesn't make me feel bad about it. The next interviewer was great I got all perfect marks. The last interviewer was a butt head, first he looks at my transcript and sees that I took Spanish I and II and starts speaking to me in Spanish, thinking I would be able to respond I explain to him that I haven't practiced the language for months, he docks points off my score then he for some reason didn't give me an excellent score for my outfit, but gives my brother an excellent score and we both wore suits. That man made me so angry for his unjust scores. I know I'm better than what he rated me!

Games to Reality....how did it apply?

As I have played many video games in my life, at the beggining things were quite simple, but as the gaming advanced things started getting a little more realistic, not talking about the graphics either, but more like religious backgrounds not in too much detail but shows some. The games that I play usually have deep dialogue and an interesting story to tell. Even tho it is wrong, they make there own god's in some of these games, but it's not the god that I focus on it's the situations that happen on that planet. When there is war, it takes something so massive as an unknown attack or disaster that puts everyone's life at risk, and seems to pull everyone against there fights against each other and focus on the tradgedy on hand. This sort of reminds me of what our country goes through...like the September 11th crisis. I might have already mentioned this in another post, but disaster seems to be the only way people can actually get together without having conflict with each other on the ridiculous topics of their lives. My application to reality and fantasy might be off, but that's how I noticed things.

Hurricane...a sign of faith? or misfortune?

With the events going on in New Orleans, the area as we all know it is devastated beyond what we can only see on television. Is this testing to see if the people living there have enough faith to make it through or is it just an unfortunate event? I think that this might help people build stronger faith and sometimes devastation is the only way to bring about stronger faith. Other times when people say that God was responsible for the hurricane, I think of it more of Satan's work instead, since he is evil and likes to make people's lives miserable. What do you think?

What do you do?

What do you do when you recieve an e-mail, from someone across the globe saying his life has gone down the drain and nothing is going right for him and decides he wants to end it all?! I had to answer this letter...I'm scared that I wasn't good enough so I seeked help from a wiser adversary, you know who you are. I pray that this person will make the right decision and choose life over death!

Japanese and English.

I think I will now start having my english topics with the Japanese translations from now on, so any exchange students I want to be able to view can also understand it.

In order for anyone else to see the translation in the actual Japanese letters follow these steps.

First go to control panel.

Then go to Date, time, language, and Regional Options.

If you don't have it go to add other languages.

I think you then click on the advanced tab and find the korean option, and I think then you will be able to view the awesome text!

I used a translator, so don't expect it to make too much sense.

私が今日本翻訳を備えた私の英国のトピックを有し今後 は始める, 従って私が見られるたいどの交換留学生もまたそれを 理解できることを私は考える。これらのステップに続くのを実際 の日本の手紙の翻訳が見る他にだれでものための順序で。最初に コントロール・パネルへ行きなさい。それから及び地方選択は, 言語日付を記入することを, 時間を計ることを行く。あなたが don't それを他の言語を加えることを行ってもらえば。あな たがそれから高度タブを考え,それからあなたは驚くばかりのテキ ストを見られることを韓国の選択を見つけ, つける, そして考え ることを私は!

What country do you want to visit?

Have you ever dreamed of visiting a country that some think as impossible to being able to experience. In my opinion dreams of going to a country you desire is what keeps a great imagination stable. I would have to choose Japan as my favorite country I would want to visit. The technology there is very advanced and that fascinates me. The people are great and the food has to be pretty good in many aspects, with the exception of some candies that I have tried.
あなたに経験できることへ不可能ように考えるためにそ のいくつか国の訪問の夢を見てもらう。あなたが望む国へ行くこ との私の意見の夢の大きい想像を安定した保つものがある。私が 訪問したい私の好みの国ように私は日本を選ばなければならない 。そこの技術は非常に高度であり, それは私を魅了する。人々は 大きく, 食糧はあるキャンデーを除いて多くの面のきれいなよく なければ, ならない私が試みた。

The housing over there in itself is very unique and looks very cozy inside, it sort of looks like a very peaceful way to live.
それ自身のハウジングは向こうに非常に独特,非常に居 心地のよい内部すなわちそれを住む非常に平和な方法のように種 類の見え見る。

The outfits are very stylish.
用品類は非常にstylish である。


The gardens are very beautiful filled with trees we never even heard of, once again another peaceful scene.
私達が決して聞かなかった木で満ちている庭は非常に美 しい, もう一度別の平和な場面。


One of the famous features of Japan is there Animated cartoons known as Anime, which some Americans love to watch. I myself like to watch some shows.
日本活気づけられた漫画の有名な特徴の1 つはAnime と して知られているそこにある見ることをあるアメリカ人が愛する 。自分自身があるショーを見るのを好むi 。

I could probably go into more detail, since I like this topic and all, but I wont. Please share your thoughts as well about your favorite country.
私がこのトピック及びすべて好むが, ので私はより多く の細部におそらく入ることができる。あなたの好みの国について のあなたの思考をまた共有しなさい。

Does time really move that fast?

I can't see where adults say that time moves so fast, I feel like this life of school has been going on for ages, I feel I'm going be stuck in it forever! From the beginning learning the ABC's to the Math basics in Elementary School, getting picked on by the most evil bully in school, were these days truly desirable memories that people want to fall back on?
Next comes Middle School, a new game plan with so many more rules than the grades before. You think you are big stuff until you find out you are scum of the earth. These three grade levels are the beginning of teen pregnancies, beginnings for hearts to get broken, learning that work is much harder when you get this far. If you are lucky you might become popular, but soon find out it isn't as great as others take it to be. Are these desirable memories that people want to remember?
Of course lets not forget the final destination before the real world, High School, a place where many people say are one of the best times of their lives. Well I don't think so, all you see are people with problems of being homosexual, mass depression occurs for some, grades for some people really drop due to the difficulty of classes and some people just don't care. If you still remain popular when you reach this far in the educational step ladder, then you may get many rewards, but also get big headed and lower others self-esteem. Prom's, as many people say, don't go unless you have a date or you will be miserable, since that's what happened to me, the dancing that goes on there are pretty nasty looking, and the outfits the women wear are a little too revealing at times. Graduation is what everyone waits for, the big diploma that lets you escape to the working world, but for some this leads to a life of nightmare. Is the a precious memory people want to hold on to?
What is next beyond High School? Well for some it is College, which is a great start for getting hired for a good paying job on the work force, and is also a place where true relationships can start. For those who choose not to go to college depends on what they want to do, most don't become very successful and are usually sad and work at fast food restaurants. Of course some of those people are usually the popular people you remember and despise when you were in school. As for me I'm going to college to make something of myself, maybe find a good partner to make a life with. These paragraphs were completely opinionated by me, since that's how I feel. I think if you live a life with God success won't be a problem, but you have to still work for it.
時間はそう速く動くと大人が, 私感じる継続している, 私ずっとそれで永久に付くことを行くことを感じるI'm を言 うどこで年齢のために学校のこの生命のようにi つcan't は 見る! ABC's をから学校のほとんどの悪によってbully 選ば れて得る小学校のmath 基本原則へ学ぶ初め偽りなく好ましい記憶 はこのごろへフォールバックにほしい民を住まわせるか. 次に中 学校すなわち等級よりそうもっとたくさんの規則の新しいゲーム 計画は前に来る。あなたがあなたをなる地球の浮きかすに見つけ るまであなたが大きい原料であることをあなたは考える。これら の3 つの等級のレベルは十代の妊娠すなわちあなたがこれを遠い 得るとき仕事が大いにより堅いことを学ぶ壊されて得るべき中心 のための初めの初めである。幸運なら他があるためにそれを取る と大きいあなたは普及いになるかもしれなかったが, すぐにそれ をisn't 見つける。これらの好ましい記憶は民を住まわせる ほしい覚えるためにあるか. 当然実質の世界すなわち高等学校す なわち場所の前に最終仕向地を忘れないために割り当てる多くの 人々がである彼らの生命の最もよい時の1 才言う。井戸 i don't はいくつかのために, あなたがである同性愛の見る すべて, 多くの不況である問題の人々起こったり, ある人々低下 のためにクラスとある人々公正なdon't 心配の難しさのため に実際に等級別になるそう考える。あなたが教育ステップ梯子の これにずっと達するときまだ普及している残れば, それからあな たは多くの報酬を得るかもしれないが, また大きい先頭に立たれ , より低い他を自尊心得る。That's が踊ってそれ継続するの でProm's は, 起こった何が私へあなたが日付を有しないかま たはあなたが悲惨なら同様に多くの人々は言う, don't 行く , かなり厄介な見ることがあり, 用品類は女性の摩耗時々少し余 りに暴露である。卒業は, 大きい免状皆が待っているものである あなたが働く世界へ脱出することを可能にするが, のためにこれ は不快感の生命をもたらす。貴重な記憶人々は握りたいへあるか . 何が高等学校を越えて次であるか. よくいくつかのためのは大 学作業員数のよい支払う仕事のために雇われて得ることのための 大きい開始の, 場所またである本当関係が始まることができる。 Don't のためにたいものをに大学へ行かないことを選ぶし, ほとんどのdon't はなり, 非常に巧妙に通常であり, ファー スト・フードのレストランの悲しいそして仕事左右される。当然 それらの人々の何人かあなたが覚え, あなたが学校にいつあった か軽蔑する普及した人々通常である。私のために生命をとの作る と自分自身の何かを作ることを大学へ行くようにI'm は多分 よいパートナーが見つける。私がいかに感じるかこれらのパラグ ラフはthat's 以来の私によって完全にopinionated, あった 。あなたが生命成功によってwon't が問題である, あなたが それのための静かな仕事なれば神との住んでいれば私は考える

I have returned.

I'm back from Florida, the trip was *ok*, but it could have been better. The most important thing is that I'm back home.

Flash site is up!

That's right I finally got one!

http://www.entertainmentgaming.150m.com/

My website.

I now have my own website. Come see!

http://www.freewebs.com/entertainmentgaming/index.htm

I know it still has tons of work to be done, but I can't make any improvisions for 7 days, cause that's what the site says.

The music experience.

I'm going to start a little test, on giving music to people. All you have to do is ask me what kind of songs you want and I can try to get them for you. I have gotten pretty good at it.

Website management.

I can try to help with the Church webpage if you like. Possibly spice it up without causing too much graphical lag, if you want my assistance, give me instructions on what you would like me to do, and tell me how I can access the webpage for me to add or make neccessary changes to make it better.

Yay for uniforms!

I finally got 2 more uniforms. Now life will be much easier on me, so I don't have to clean every night.

Mc Donald Schedule

Here is my next list of days I work and don't work.

Monday: Not working
Tuesday: Not working
Wednesday: 11:00am-7:00pm
Thursday: 12:00am-7:00pm
Friday: 11:00am-6:00pm
Saturday: 11:00am CALL
Sunday: 11:00am CALL

Come visit some time.

I need uniforms!

I still only have 1 uniform at Mc Donalds and I have told Tanya, good lord knows how many times about getting more uniforms and I still have yet to recieve any! I wonder when she will finally get some?

Does popularity really change a person?

I ask this question because, I e-mailed a famous person and I'm waiting to see if he will reply. Hopefully he will, if by what I see, he seems to be the kind that won't let popularity get in the way of his true self. If my judgement is correct then possibly popularity is only a trait taken advantage of by the arrogant people who don't care.

The Jackson stupidity!

THOSE IDIOTS! I can't believe they let Jackson win the case. I guess money does talk, and truth stays silent. Class and mainly popularity is what I hate most about people, they get what they want too much and this is just a bit too far in Jacksons case! One of these days I'm sure *never mind I still think he loves those little boys and girls* he will probably continue what he is doing and get away with it. I wish people would use their brains instead of their money in situations like these.

I'm a Mc Donalds man now!

I just got hired! I will now give you my schedule for this week so you can visit me!

Monday:Not working
Tuesday:5pm-9pm
Wednesday:5pm-9pm
Thursday:5pm-9pm
Friday:Not working
Saturday:6pm-12pm
Sunday:6pm-12pm

Please stop by and say hi!

My summer is ruined!!

I forgot that I'm getting a job at either Dairy Queen or Mc Donalds, and now I won't get to participate in even half of the church events. I wish there was a way to participate in lots of them, especially when we are eating together.

The School Prank.

Today of all days I usually don't eat school food, and today I did. I just got word that someone stuck laxutives in the vegetable soup...and you can guess how I felt after that...DIAHREA!!!! I really don't appreaciate who ever did this, but it was kinda funny.

It will be my time soon...

After watching today's senior banquet, I see myself up there, well not up there speaking infront of everyone, but just graduating and getting myself into a whole new world! When I heard that it will be hard to fill the shoes of the seniors of this year, I thought to myself, I may not make the cut, but there are others who can. I'm just glad to be getting close to the end of the beginning! I know I wasn't much of an influence to anybody, but that doesn't matter to me, my goal wasn't to be someone I know I can't be, my goal was, well actually I don't truly know my goal. If there was someone I influenced I don't know what I did or how I did it, and I want to know whom I influenced, as a means of proof of something special in my life. Till my day comes all I can do is wait and work my way to the end.

Unhealthy, unbeneficial school food?

It has been said that the food we it at school is healthy. Well in reality those bozos who said this should eat some food poisoning for saying that, since the food only makes people gain weight more. This state is too lazy to fork over cash for a good cause than for the bad causes to just waste money. You don't need to worry about freshman 15 when you get in college because, you gotta worry about the highschool supreme (or in other words freshman - senior 40) first. I gained so much weight from eating highschool food it's not even funny. If schools want healthy and smart students they should care a little more than they are, it's not the present they should worry about it's the future! I used to be 210 pounds before I stopped eating school food and now I'm 173 that should tell you something, school food is bad!

I passed!

I passed my drivers test, I'm an official driver now!

We need more fun things for church.

As busy as our youth group schedule is and all, we need more FUN things to do, we all know the usual ice skating, but how about regular roller skating (if there is any left)? Something else that would be different is going to a restaurant and all of us eating, and a great restaurant is the Californian American Chinese Cuisine, great buffet of both worlds. Another movie night would be pretty decent along with a game night where everyone brings in fun games to play (of course I bring in the best of them all the DDR). Of course it's almost that time of year again lets go to the park for an all teen cook out meaning ages 13 and up, it's time that teenagers have fun without young children always having to be there. These kind of activities are not demands just requests, and if this stuff is coming from me that has quite a bit of meaning, since I usually keep quiet about it all. Well now I have awaken from that sleep and I'm ready for action. So if you find any of my ideas pretty good for the future then thanks!

What does life mean to you?

Does life truly have a really nice meaning? Or is it just a word that corresponds to how people make it. I can't say it is just a really nice meaning, since it doesn't mean that much to me. I understand things much better now than I did before, but some of the realities I understand now are very amusing to me, and sometimes throws an obstacle in my path, sometimes that obstacle is so big, that I can't get around it by myself, or at least I don't think so. If you know what these kind of mixed feelings are like then you know the hardships and pain that I'm going through and truly in my opinion it could make me stronger in the long run. This just might be a work of God testing me on my emotional path and it has been a hard path to take.

A world beyond reality.

Have you ever wanted to be somewhere enchanting, somewhere out of the real hardships of what the world does? This may not take you completely away from it all, but it gives you some peace of mind. Online gaming is a great way of going into your own fantasy. I myself play online games and I have some posted in my blogger under the links section and the good thing is that they are free. I shall give a small description of some posted. Ragnarok Online- A beautiful animated game with nice graphics, and real sound and music, which gives the feel of almost real life. It has many quests, and people with a multitude of classes to choose from. Gates To Heaven- An online game that makes you think of angels, that has many quests, people and 4 classes of hermits 2 being male and 2 being female. Dragon Raja-A great game that has a few classes, many quests and people and will be going free to play in June (not sure of the exact date), but it will be great.

I will warn you, this game may have bad language, not from the game itself, but from the players on the server. There might be foul language blockers, but I'm not sure. The language isn't much of a problem, if it is just minimize the chat screen. Remember I play on these games, so if you decide you want to play, please invite friends and family to come a join me in a world beyond reality and step into a world of fantasy.

I survived!

I made it past the horrid presentation! I had no difficulty what so ever once I got started. I still don't know how long I did. All I care about is that I made it.

It went pretty well.

Well I survived the prom...had some tears from being a wall flower once in a while. I mananged to dance with a few people and did some fun dances as well. But some people wouldn't even say hi to me which made me more upset. The same person that I thought was my best friend..I still hope he is. Next time I will try to get a date, that was the main problem. Anyways I do have prom pictures which will be in I don't know when.

Prom time!

Well tomorrow is the prom! I'm very excited. I hope I will have a good time even tho I will be alone...it might not be so bad.

What are friends?

As a being who lives life alone all the time, this question just pops up in my head, yet I can never answer it. I used to have a best friend, but I think I'm slowly losing him to a relationship. The sad thing is there is nothing I can do. My other friend will be graduating soon and going to Ohio and now I will be all alone through the rest of high school. Maybe it's best that I don't make friends, but live in a dark world of my own.