Happy New Years!!!

The New Year has finally come! This big event comes with good and bad happenings during the night, noting that people truly do abuse this holiday to get drunk, trashed, and party in a bad manner. On the other hand some people reflect on how they can change for the good of the new year, I for one am definately reflecting on what kind of change I should make, but at the same time, very anxious for the church New Years Eve party tonight! I hope people that trash themselves tonight realize that it serves no purpose for the new year and could have celebrated in a more responsible and respectful manner. I hope you all have a splendid New Years Eve and plan good for the next year!

Open The Eyes Of My Heart Lord...

Open the eyes of my heart Lord,

Open the eyes of my heart,

I want to see you,

I want to see you.

To see you high and lifted up,

Shining in the light of your glory,

Pour our your power and love,

As we sing holy, holy, holy.

These words...are starting to make more sense to me, they bring a more positive perspective and as well a bright perspective of what we will be waiting for in Heaven! One can only imagine, actually one can't even imagine what wonderful things will greet us when we make it to the gates of Heaven! I will try to become a better christian and take a greater holy stand, I know I can do it!

An unusual burning desire...

Ever since christmas ended, for some reason I feel like my christian walk has gotten stronger. I really don't understand what made it grow, but I feels pretty good, I know that reading Jakes and Toney's blogs have been quite an influence, but something else is causing this wonderful feeling. I'm even more pumped for Winterfest more than ever!

Christian Music Videos

I found a nice collection of songs, that we all know. And for some reason some of them look like they came from our Winterfest Trips. Enjoy!

Here I Am To Worship
http://www.youtube.com/?v=TuzicypsS4Y

For All You've Done
http://www.youtube.com/?v=WxvDEg-L3mo

King Of Majesty
http://www.youtube.com/?v=5c6hT1GGlRE

The Spirit In Your Eyes

I decided to make up a song, on how I feel about people in life, people I respect. I hope it makes sense.
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When I woke up one morning, to a world of mystery, all I saw was bitterness and hatred, a terrible never ending story.

The day I thought the world would end, all of a sudden a ray of hope came from someone, that made the world seem less dim.

(Chorus)
It was in your eyes that a wish came true, a wish for peace and happiness, that would never make others blue. It was the Spirit in your Eyes..

As I walk that narrow path alone, depression walked on in, and the only thing I saw around me was the darkness in my heart.

I didn't know where to turn, until I saw a light at the end. I knew that someone was watching over me, possibly my long lost friend.

(Chorus)
It was in your eyes that symbolized love from above, a warm feeling that few could ever achieve. It was the Spirit in your Eyes..

We finally met eye to eye and talked about the one called God, the true meaning of what life is about, the one who knows all.

I truly turned my life around, I could see things so clear. When I'm in fear and doubt, I should fear no more, as I can pray, hope for the best and live another day.

(Chorus)
It was in your eyes that I finally found a way to figure life out, a wise and virtuous friend that seems like God around and about. It was the Spirit in your Eyes..and that Spirit will never die.

Merry Christmas!

Well, today I performed for the first time at church singing: My Grownup Christmas List. I made it through very well. I recieved wonderful gifts. This year has been the best Christmas yet! I hope you all have a very Merry Christmas!

A world of unknown sadness...

My depression has been acting up for some reason this week, I randomly cry sometimes...my heart aches....I wish I knew why I feel the way I do right now. Is this pain I'm feeling a sign? Will this make me stronger? I wish God could explain to me why I'm going through this..my emotions are all mixed up..for once in my life I would like these mysterious burdens to go away..it's as if a part of me is gone...what is my life coming to?! Can I get through this? I want to know! Maybe someone will be able to answer my prayer, and lighten my load...

Whittaker Case: Why won't it end?!

I honestly thought that this event was over, until today, finding out that it still lives on...it frustrates me so much! What is the real answer behind this! From what I see and hear, that girl honestly in a technical form, killed herself. She could have been living to this very day if she wasn't making stupid decisions! My comments on this topic may seem apathetic, but people takes things out of proportion...I mean they make this case seem like the end of the world when surely there are many of the same things going on everywhere, just because she was a rich child, and could go beyond her boundaries and to me test what nature can actually do to you, and with that she payed the ultimate price. Teenagers need to gain some intellegence before they those consequences happen, I don't plan on being one of those people, I want to live life to the fullest!

Church + Cliques= Bad news..

There is one thing about being a teenager that I hate most and that is dealing with the multitude of cliques that are around at school. I don't belong to one, because I don't have good enough social status to obtain such things, but I sometimes wish I could be in one to feel that kind of importance. Church hmm how to describe church and the many cliques they have...THEY DON'T NEED THEM!!! And yet they some how get in there anyways. It really separates people from one another and we lose connection. To me, if you have a special status at school or if you are an adult and you have a special status at work...LEAVE IT THERE! I just wish it would stop, it's unfair and sometimes it's just plain uncalled for.

Almost back to normal.

After the major drag I have been going through lately, I think it's almost over, I just hope that some of the thoughts from my previous post are changed to the positive side instead of what they are now..maybe one of these days that will happen. What I pray for the most is to have many trusting friends I can go to, I do have some from church, but you can never have to many trustworthy friends..if you know me in some way and you are reading this post maybe you could be one if you want.

True feelings..

Sometimes...my thoughts are so heavy, it makes me feel bad, and it makes me feel alone at times. I always feel like screaming on the inside! I cry, but no one sees it, I try to be someone people want to be around, but just can't seem to play the cards right. I want to express myself to people, but can't find the words to say..I want to find true friendship. That would be a miracle...

Happy ThanksGiving Everyone!

God has blessed me a very nice Thanksgiving day, and semi-beautiful atmosphere to celebrate it in!





The first Thanksgiving was probably not what we think it was.
The Thanksgiving we now celebrate--a feast of togetherness between the Pilgrims and the Native Americans--was not the original gathering.

It is true that Squanto and his fellow Native Americans helped the Pilgrims to grow crops and get sap from trees and survive the harsh winters of what would become New England. But the very first harvest feast that these two peoples enjoyed was not called Thanksgiving.
Rather it was a celebration of the fall harvest, when vegetables were pulled from the ground and off stalks and made ready for a big meal.

Pilgrims and Native Americans dined together at the same tables, yes, and they played games together and demonstrated their bow-and-arrow and musket-shooting skills to each other. But they didn't call it Thanksgiving until 1624.

That year, William Bradford, the governor of the Plymouth Colony, proclaimed a day of thanksgiving that was really a day of fasting and prayer. (Remember, fasting is when you don't eat. So, Thanksgiving started out as a day of not eating.) And the day the members of the Plymouth Colony celebrated this day of fasting and prayer in thanksgiving was November 29.
So we have two ideas coming together: a day of thanksgiving for the fall harvest, on which people fasted and prayed, and a great feast to celebrate the bounty of the fall harvest. Since both activities celebrated the same thing--the fall harvest--it's only natural that they eventually merged (like so many other American holidays).

This merged celebration continued informally through the years, until 1863, when President Abraham Lincoln declared the fourth Thursday of November a national holiday called Thanksgiving.

How did we decide on eating Turkey? Well, that's another story.

I quoted this paragraph off another site, so it's not mine.

Can't wait to graduate!

Ooooh, it seems like it's going to take forever to graduate from high school, and after the Marshall University Open House tour, it makes me want to graduate even more since I found out my best friend goes there! God has definately answered my prayer and now I won't feel alone anymore!

To be logical or not to be logical.

Today in church, we had a discussion on multiple topics, and one of those topics ended up in a discussion on if God is logical. I for one don't think so due to everything on earth isn't very logically in tact. The only true logical beings to me are your scientists, big time professors, and people who just want to be logical. One of the topics about logic was love, which I also think is illogical, due to the fact that really, love has no real boundaries unless it is abused in that kind of fashion. In a logical way of thinking (If I were logical) that would be saying that you have to love a certain person and stick with that person. I pretty much find logic to be a sort of lazy way of figuring something out a better way. To me thinking illogically has a more broad approach and makes decisions more simpler to make. I don't know if I could survive this world based on complete logic, sometimes logic is ok, but not my most favorite style of thought.

Is fame an understatement?

I watch TV sometimes, mainly the disney shows like, That's So Raven, Suit Life of Zack and Cody, and Phil of the Future, and I wonder, are their lives as glamorous as it looks?

Ricky Ullman

An actor from one of my most favorite comedies, Phil of the Future. He always looks happy, but is he really like this? Does someone famous ever have time to themselves? Sure, the money he makes has to be pretty good, but as it is said, money doesn't bring happiness. I wish sometimes I could be in the spot light and be recognized for some kind of talent, but my performance skills are very lack and I'm too shy to do anything about it. I guess in Ricky's case, stars are usually very talented from the very beginning.

I guess in God's eyes we are all famous people and are just as worthy of the spot light as anybody else.

People are big critics!

Yesterday was the portfolio fair, I was confident that I could do it. I make it to the first interview, of course mistakes are found right off the bat, but he doesn't make me feel bad about it. The next interviewer was great I got all perfect marks. The last interviewer was a butt head, first he looks at my transcript and sees that I took Spanish I and II and starts speaking to me in Spanish, thinking I would be able to respond I explain to him that I haven't practiced the language for months, he docks points off my score then he for some reason didn't give me an excellent score for my outfit, but gives my brother an excellent score and we both wore suits. That man made me so angry for his unjust scores. I know I'm better than what he rated me!

Games to Reality....how did it apply?

As I have played many video games in my life, at the beggining things were quite simple, but as the gaming advanced things started getting a little more realistic, not talking about the graphics either, but more like religious backgrounds not in too much detail but shows some. The games that I play usually have deep dialogue and an interesting story to tell. Even tho it is wrong, they make there own god's in some of these games, but it's not the god that I focus on it's the situations that happen on that planet. When there is war, it takes something so massive as an unknown attack or disaster that puts everyone's life at risk, and seems to pull everyone against there fights against each other and focus on the tradgedy on hand. This sort of reminds me of what our country goes through...like the September 11th crisis. I might have already mentioned this in another post, but disaster seems to be the only way people can actually get together without having conflict with each other on the ridiculous topics of their lives. My application to reality and fantasy might be off, but that's how I noticed things.

Hurricane...a sign of faith? or misfortune?

With the events going on in New Orleans, the area as we all know it is devastated beyond what we can only see on television. Is this testing to see if the people living there have enough faith to make it through or is it just an unfortunate event? I think that this might help people build stronger faith and sometimes devastation is the only way to bring about stronger faith. Other times when people say that God was responsible for the hurricane, I think of it more of Satan's work instead, since he is evil and likes to make people's lives miserable. What do you think?

What do you do?

What do you do when you recieve an e-mail, from someone across the globe saying his life has gone down the drain and nothing is going right for him and decides he wants to end it all?! I had to answer this letter...I'm scared that I wasn't good enough so I seeked help from a wiser adversary, you know who you are. I pray that this person will make the right decision and choose life over death!

Japanese and English.

I think I will now start having my english topics with the Japanese translations from now on, so any exchange students I want to be able to view can also understand it.

In order for anyone else to see the translation in the actual Japanese letters follow these steps.

First go to control panel.

Then go to Date, time, language, and Regional Options.

If you don't have it go to add other languages.

I think you then click on the advanced tab and find the korean option, and I think then you will be able to view the awesome text!

I used a translator, so don't expect it to make too much sense.

私が今日本翻訳を備えた私の英国のトピックを有し今後 は始める, 従って私が見られるたいどの交換留学生もまたそれを 理解できることを私は考える。これらのステップに続くのを実際 の日本の手紙の翻訳が見る他にだれでものための順序で。最初に コントロール・パネルへ行きなさい。それから及び地方選択は, 言語日付を記入することを, 時間を計ることを行く。あなたが don't それを他の言語を加えることを行ってもらえば。あな たがそれから高度タブを考え,それからあなたは驚くばかりのテキ ストを見られることを韓国の選択を見つけ, つける, そして考え ることを私は!